4-9-17
The cycle is trough-to-crest;
and at the highest point
it is torn to shreds of foam,
only holding up hook-limbed gulls.
I have been following it,
humming along in my cavities
with the oscillation.
A circle is also a wave
is also the pulse in my lower lip.
The roundness represents breath,
a thick bone cage on a stem of flesh,
not bound by heliotaxis,
it eventually finishes curving,
the light only touching one side.
Breathe in, and be locked in gray,
breathe out
and explode into feathers.
Blood flows in convection
like a thunderstorm.
The pulse stands out
like the hair on your arms.
Breathe in because that must happen next,
squeeze the center as trough
becomes apex
and changes form.A few things: I wasn't writing or uploading anything because it felt kinda pointless, since I have one reader (hi Ben). Some people believe you do art for art, or for yourself, but I think there is more to the relationship between a creator/creation and its audience than that. Part of my lack of readers is that I do not plug this blog at all, anywhere. I don't want to seem like I'm bragging, or trying to come across as some personality traits that I am not by virtue of writing poems (which tend to be seen as outlets for negative emotions by the general population), or desperate for "likes". However I'm not sure how anyone would find it otherwise, especially if they did not know what they were searching for. Part of posting poems by other authors was in an effort to look less self-centered, and give an aura of respectability (ie "this is a blog about poetry, therefore, high art!" rather than "come read my emotional barf"), but that became pointless too, since I wasn't searching out anything in particular, and only copy-and-pasting things that came into my email. What is the point in doing that?
I don't know if there is a way to seek an audience without looking like any of the things I'd like to avoid. There are a lot of things in life that are best done alone, and perhaps the writing process is one, but it can't end there so I have to change something for me, otherwise this part of the process (and sorta in turn, the rest of the process) becomes pretty pointless.
